Friday, June 29, 2007

As we were driving down into Mexico, I purchased a small notebook, promising myself that I would only use it for this certain universe I have been working on. Certainly, I thought, this would be complex enough to fill the little book, but not too quickly. After all, I was only going to be writing in it during my (forseeably scant) free time. Even if I wrote whatever came to mind, it would likely last me a nice long while. Especially since I do the bulk of my work on the computer.

So I started filling out a few character sheets, little brief things about species, origin, appearance, etc., and making notes as to nationality. A little ways in I noticed that one character's claimed home was distinctly incongruous with the natural relations between species in this set - these two were famed for killing each other when avoidance was not a possibility. With this in mind I took a page or two to explain both the incongruity and why it happened anyways to myself... and then a third, and a fourth, and thought to myself that I really should wrap it up. After all, it wasn't a story in itself, only what happened - right?

About the eighth page I realised that I was in trouble. The characters just wouldn't shut up. Yes, Cameron, I know you find that somewhat disturbing. So will some other people, I am sure. But it is true nonetheless. What, I ask, is one to do when the characters develop enough of their own life to tug away and say, 'Wait, that's not right, I wouldn't do that - rather I would do such-and-such, or perhaps I might do this under these circumstances, but really if you look at my racial background you would see that...'? It really is not fair at all. And the twelfth page came, and the thirteenth, and I thought to myself that this absolutely had to stop. This was not the main story. This was only the backstory of the backstory of a minor character who is presumed dead far before the main story begins. And what was wrong with me, anyhow? I never wrote more than a page or two with paper and pen; the things are far too irritating and slow.

...At the 22nd page, now, I am thinking that perhaps I will soon need a new notebook. Then again, I have access to a computer - though only my sister's. But somehow I do not think that that will end the ceaseless nagging of the characters.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Tomorrow I become a stranger to my home, in feeling if not of necessity present absence. I will, after all, return again this summer. But it is a leavetaking nonetheless.

(Antanya nĂ¡ singwa ar hendinya uhilya niranya...)

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Regarding Erestor -

I love him, I really do, and most of the time I enjoy his company. But I swear if he does not learn some wisdom soon I am going to throttle him.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

"I will tell you," the dragon said finally, "what wisdom is, if you will promise to become wise."

"How can I promise that?" Ker blurted in a panic. Sweat ran down his ribs, and dried in the heat of the dragon's breath.

"Small beings may have small wisdom," the dragon said. "And small wise beings are better than small fools. Listen: Wisdom is caring for afterwards."

"Caring for afterwards...?" Ker repeated this without understanding.

"After action, afterwards," the dragon said. "Choose the afterwards first, then the action. Fools choose action first."

Ker opened his mouth to say that only fortune-tellers could know what would happen, but fear stopped him: Would he really argue with a dragon while trapped in its circle?

The dragon's snout edged closer, nudged him. He staggered back: A dragon's nudge was like a blow from a strong man. Or a dwarf.

"You see," the dragon murmured. "You do know."

~"Judgment," Elizabeth Moon